Today being Anzac day has really made me think about my life, my directions, my emotions, my accomplishments but most my exsitence... Thousands of men lost their live's in battles they could not win, no matter how they tried, and it was all done for the freedom of what we have today, most of them didnt have a choice to be there, however they took that step out on the front line knowing there was no going back.. not just to bunkers that night but to their family's at home.. to the life they knew before that battle...They shall never be forgotten..
My question to myself is what have I done to "justify my exsitence" or to be worthy of the ultimate sacrifice that these men and women did for me.
I have been living my life in order to make others happy and awaiting a change in the wind or by something I feel I can do to create their happiness.
Am I really being forfilled or living a forfilled life by giving to those who will only deceive me in the future? How do you weed out the real from the fake...? I guess my answer to this is "Yes".. I am forfilled.. I do it cause I feel its right and do it in hope to make a difference to someones life for the better.. no matter how they treat me in the future that fact is, I do it not to receive but to give... The only thing that needs to change is my expectation on that person to be true and loyal... It is up to them to choose to or not... not for me to expect it.
The men on the front line, step forward and gave their life, knowing it would not be returned to them, but they did it to make a difference to our live's today and for always..
By continuing to give in order to make a difference I hope I can "justify my exsistance' from what may come from my actions.
Lest we never forget xo
